A New Story Unfolds

So it has been a year since I typed anything here. Life was a journey in 2018. I have been through a lot. So many different kinds of emotions and feelings. But today I want to talk about the feeling of fear. It was about an exam. I was called in by the lecturer and to notify me that I need to do properly in the next few exams because of my poor performance in the previous exam. I can’t say how scared I was at that time. Knowing that you are weak and incompetent at times but I was grateful as well that it happened. It knocked me in the head to remind me of the things I lack and where I should start improving. I worked my ass off after that trying my best to be able to keep up with things that I should. It was hard. I was scared. But I kept pushing on and not to forget the amount of tears wasted on those feelings but it wasn’t wasted as it was necessary for me to let go of my feeling to better understand how I feel about this situation I am in. The exam then approached after 6 weeks of pushing myself forward even when it is so hard but I had to or else there will be consequences. And what drives me to do what I do at that time was fear. Regardless of the nature of the fear, it is necessary to experience fear of some form. But don’t let it stops you and instead let it pushes you forward to reach a new higher ground and save yourself from the fear. I have been letting fear stop me and also pushes me forward in life. But in conclusion, fear is necessary. Let there be fear and let it pushes you a thousand miles forward knowing that it is just a feeling of some sort and depending on how we react towards it, life can be a whole lot different.